We all have that day that we are waiting for. That weekend or vacation. Something to wish that we were not where we are now and at this Shangri-La that we know that we will sometime be in. This fantasy just makes the here and now less pleasurable. If we could just make the most of the now time we would always be happier.
I know heading in for work or something that I would rather not do I am focused on that thing that I think that I would rather be doing. Making what I am doing seem worse than it is. Creating anxiety when you could probably not have it.
All the wishing, hoping and praying will not change where you are at any given second. So you just have to deal with it. How you deal with the now determines how things will come out later. What you will be doing and where you will be doing it.
Last summer I was off for five weeks total for three surgeries. When the first doctor gave me a note to tell me that I needed to take ten days off it felt strange. Then being off for three weeks straight I sort of developed a desire to be off all the time. Realizing that some folks are off all the time.
The fact is that I after a short time I was not bored. The days seemed to start passing quickly. I see a lot of people in my complex that do not work and seem to be very happy. I guess I could be happy having what I have without having to do anything to have it.
This knowledge just makes me feel less happy. pretty much all the time. As with that time off even being in pain was better then having to do something you do not really like to do. I have nine medical issues that seem to qualify for a state of disability. I have aches and pains that I did not know one could have.
But the reality of it is that trying to be happy in the here and now is something to concentrate on. Knowing that things aren't the best but certainly could be worse. Just need to find that fair to midland.
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